Yes absolutely. Whatever gets you devvin’ and feelin’ good :)
I did some digging and came up with these folks:
and the local IGDA: http://www.igdatc.org/ is supposedly pretty active.
Sorry it’s not more, anon!
Also it sucks how often students in game design programs or clubs get screwed like this. I’ve visited a few schools now and all of them except USC IMGD I’ve seen the groups of folks who want to start making games immediately have difficulty doing so and it just seems to backwards and weird. Sorry you’re having to put up with that :(
Nope! What you need to do is go download any of the following free software:
And start making games. Start by taking one of these things and looking through the tutorial documentation. All of them come with example projects. Once you get a tiny grasp on the interface, take one of the example games and mess with it. Change out the art. Change some variables. Poke at it. Then build something on to it - make it not resemble the sample game at all. I don’t care if you want to be an artist, coder, designer, sound person, or what - it’s good to have a holistic idea of what goes into making games. It lets you communicate with others on your teams better, it lets you find your voice and screw around with smaller stuff on your own time so you can make easy mistakes, and it lets you understand what you’re asking of potential teammates a bit more.
THEN, you should have a bit of familiarity with these tools. The next thing you wanna do is make something from scratch. Think of an idea, and then distill it to the smallest possible gameplay element. Make that ONE element. Just that. Mess with it and see how you like it. Maybe slap in some art (if you’re not an artist check out opengameart so you can still make stuff pretty). Then decide if it’s worth exploring further, if not, do it again.
Keep doing this till you find something that really resonates with you, and then explore that further but still try and make a small to medium game out of it. Scope is the indie’s mortal enemy, it swoops down on us and devours us in it’s mighty jaws if we don’t carry pointy sticks (or have producers/project managers) to fend off our natural predators.
Repeat the process till you’re sure if you wanna keep doing this or not. Go to game jams. Meet other developers. Participate in online stuff. Maybe find some people to do small jams with. Show your work to anyone with eyeballs and get feedback. Ask for help if you need it.
That’s the advice I can give as a place to start. If ever you see a better path, and really think that it’s better for you, by all means explore it too. Be ok with failing. Like, a lot. Game designers are a lot like games themselves - we all thrive on iteration and experimentation. Sometimes this means failing, and that’s absolutely an ok thing to do.
And when you’ve made some stuff, show me :)
I’m not sure how you can follow anything I do and not know that I am very aware of that. I’ve literally gone on stage at PAX East and advocated for it.
Look. 90% of the time I am patient. It used to be 100% but since getting into a loooooooooooot of conversations with people trying to harass me, I’ve learned a lot.
There’s such a thing as a good faith conversation and a bad faith conversation.
A good faith conversation comes from a genuine place of ignorance and even misguided naivety. Even if they come off hostile or brash, there’s progress that can be made there. Even if they’re kind of being a dick about it, they show SOME signs of being open to thinking deeper about these things. I can take a bit of a beating if I think the person is actually going to listen to anything I have to say on any level, and I won’t take it too personally. I know there’s plenty of shit I don’t know, and that I used to know even less, and I was lucky enough to have people in my life help me grow because of how they were kind and patient. Even if people doing the harassing don’t adapt immediately, if it seems like they’re thinking about it *at all*, I feel ok with having been polite and actually engaging them. I exhaust myself quite a bit doing this, and it doesn’t usually turn out to be an immediate improvement.
Then there’s bad faith conversations. The person is, quite simply, being an asshole. They will not be dissuaded by evidence, no matter how strong or backed up it is. They have their mind made up about you, and it’s not really a conversation. I feel like these are likely the minority of the interactions I have, and it’s often anonymous internet comments like the ones I’ve been responding to.
With that in mind, please consider the following factors:
- I come from a stand up comedy background. Do you know what a heckler is? They’re the latter type of interaction. The best way to handle a heckler, most of the time, is to turn it around on them and make them look foolish, and to out-funny and out-snark them. Honestly, that can work wonders.When people are embarrassed or feel foolish, sometimes that leads to a bit more critical thinking than they’ve been otherwise doing about a situation.
- I do take the nice route most of the time. It seems like an unfair judgement call to make on someone who has spent months talking to people who are/were anon internet trolls to figure out the root cause of why they are/were like that without judgement or hostility towards them even while I get rape threats from people with a similar mentality once a week and harassing comments DAILY. It’s fucking HARD sometimes. But, one thing I’ve learned from talking to them about shit that changes their dehumanization of their targets is that something humanized them, and a lot of the time when it’s not being nice or vulnerable, it’s by being funny. It’s by playing the game back. It’s immediately relatable on SOME level to give someone who is giving you shit shit right back, especially if they view you as an uptight activist. If being nice isn’t working, sometimes you’re not speaking the same language. Sometimes it helps to try another one, maybe one that will help you get on the same page and get them to realize you’re a person and not just words on a screen, and then you can really talk. It sucks, but there’s some situations being nice will get you nothing more than completely steamrolled over and ignored.
- Other people who deal with this shit are watching. There have been so many days where I was too exhausted to say anything, to stand up for myself, to make a joke about it, or to try to engage on any level. It just felt like getting punched in a sore spot, usually on days I had other life stuff like when my mom died and people were sending me gross shit about it. A lot of other folks who get harassed have those days too. And when I am having those days, sometimes it can really help to see someone actually fight back against someone who is being an unrelenting asshole. Sometimes you need something else to keep you going. Sometimes you need to have a laugh that someone else is saying the things you wish you had the energy for right then, and humor is a tremendous healing force.
- It’s a commonly thrown around shitty thing that women can’t be/aren’t funny. This one is a more personal thing for me, but when someone is taking a massive shit all over me for talking about the realities of being a woman, combined with coming from standup where there’s TREMENDOUS biases against women, it’s like taking the thing they said you could never do and wielding it. I feel like how we deal with things is important, and if I am simply playing to the feminine ideal of essentially acquiescing 100% of the time because I think I *should* and not responding like I do to most things, with humor, then that’s kind of a problem in my mind.
- Attitudes like the ones I’ve been responding to should be considered ridiculous, and thus worthy of ridicule. When it’s this hyperbolic and absurd, not treating it as such can kind of set us back sometimes, I think. These are *not* viewpoints that are based in any sort of reality, these are not legitimate issues, these are kids stomping their feet and punching down because they don’t want to hear about anyone that isn’t like them. It’s a lot like when the news has some climate change denier with a phd in fuckall on next to a legitimate scientist in the field - equating the two and pretending they’re equal points in an argument makes zero sense.
- Having, as a rule, to always be “nice” to people who mean to shit all over you and will never give you the time of day is a silly rule to try and enforce on anyone. I don’t agree with people who are all rage, all the time, or who are so tired of dealing with this shit day-in day-out that they have no patience left and only really lash out. But I also don’t blame them, and I don’t begrudge them their way of dealing with shit even if it’s different than mine. Unless you’ve been there, you don’t know how exhausting it gets. I don’t think it’s fair or productive to expect anyone to be 100% sweetness and sunshine all the time in the face of people wishing them active harm. I don’t see who that helps other than the people who are going to keep doing it because no one’s ever pushed back against them. And all things considered, pushing back with humor and gentle ribbing is not really that much of a push. It’s not like I’m breaking out slurs or personal attacks, I’m just making fun of the points being made and trying to point out how inane they are.
- If you’re always nice in the same way to everyone ever, good lord you sound disingenuous. I’d have a hard time trusting anyone who has the same tone for someone praising them as for someone who sent them a graphic threat. I don’t even think that’s likely a healthy way of dealing with emotions, and it doesn’t let the person who is doing the shitty things KNOW that behavior is shitty and destructive. I’d rather people know where I stand, and trust that I mean what I say.
Basically what I’m saying is 90% of the time, yes. I am in favor of patience and kindness when I have the energy for it, and not engaging when I don’t. Good god, you have NO idea how much I don’t respond to. But ridicule has it’s place to - being intolerant of this sort of behavior is where I’d like the tone of the industry to shift. People who talk to others like the anon I’ve been answering should have those words be mocked, and hopefully they’ll clue into the fact that what they just said was tremendously stupid.
That 10% I am ok with reserving for stupid anonymous internet comments.
yeah wow being forced to follow me on twitter and read about bad shit happening to me and my friends must be really really hard for you.
so hard that you keep coming to my tumblr and writing a whole lot of whiny words about how much you hate what you perceive to be whining.
oh my god
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quick *69 and look up the number in the phonebook
wait that’s not a phonebook
I love youtube. I love the weird and awesome things you can find on there, and I’ve made kind of a habit out of dredging up both of those things. I’ve compiled my favorite less than 30 second clips on youtube into a hellscape of a mashup like a really weird mixtape of things you could find on a vhs in a garage and other nonsense.
This could likely be considered NWS because there’s a butt in it at one point and I think people say swears a few times.
I hope you like it!
(there’s an exception made for bob saget’s butt/a piece of pizza cause that’s my OTP sorry)
I love that you saw a joke post making fun of that last person where I declared myself a hellbeast and your train of thought was seriously
"Oh no, she clearly doesn’t understand the process by which she would ruin a website by being someone with annoying activist ideas such as ‘please stop telling queer developers to kill themselves for releasing a game’ or ‘maybe don’t call my phone and jerk off into it because you think women can’t have depression’ or ‘everyone that wants to make games deserves the right to without people sending them death or rape threats’ - I need to REMEDY this! Those are HORRIBLE things to think or say!’
like as though if you just explained it I would go “oh, ok. You’re right, Rando Calrissian. Sure every single time I’ve been on Giant Bomb we primarily talked about Buckfast, VR, balancing your health with how hard you work, cybernetics, weird videogames, and comedy but no you clearly have the right of it, I would somehow destroy the entire site by having the same beliefs that the dudes do (and you’re kidding yourself if you think they agree with what you’re doing right now - they’ve even said so).”
It must be really hard for you to be the only sane person amidst a sea of horrible people who would intrude on your right to act like an enormous toddler who feels like minority voices simply existing at all is somehow taking your toys away. Thank you for taking your time on a holiday to tell me how it is - your time must be very valuable if you’re sending your sage advice via tumblr anon messages to people who make video games for a living.
Let me repay you with a book that I think may be written just for you:
I’m going to use your ignorant-as-fuck pearl clutching comment as an opportunity to post some really awesome pics of older folx with tattoos.
*in an emotionally dead voice* oh no the future looks so dim for me,